Please don't ask if we are sleeping. Please don't even ask.
We aren't. I've seen every hour of the clock for at least 24 hours. Tim, while his eyes are closed and he isn't actively moving, is still not getting good sleep. He hears Attison cry, me get up, me yell at Jenny to go back to bed...
We've been working too. A lot more than we wanted to. I worked almost a full day yesterday, with my child on my lap as he cried every time I tried to move his sleeping little body to a swing, or rocker or crib. I did get to look into his cute little face while I typed, but I wished I could be enjoying him wholeheartedly, not thinking "oh you are so cute, please don't wake up."
So naturally, this morning, I'm exhausted. While nursing, I decided to read us the Celtic Daily Prayer, thinking some prayer is what we both needed to get this sleep deprived body moving today. Low and behold, I often forget, when you open the bible, the Lord speaks. Here is His word for me today, perhaps if it is needed, you may find solace in it as well.
From the Aidan Readings for November 30th, the scripture readings are:
Psalm 116:7
Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you.
Isaiah 49:15-16
Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!
See I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.
2 John 12
I have so much to write to you, but I do not want to use paper and ink. Instead, I hope to visit you and talk with you face to face, so that our joy may be complete.
From the daily meditations (I read the 31st by accident - or divine provision...)
Forgive me while I partially quote the partial quote...
"They were being given (not by us, but by God's answers to prayers) a demonstration that God exists. It was a combination which could never be 'planned' or 'put on' as an exhibit...it had to be real.
...a completely new work...would never had been possible if we had not been uprooted completely in every way, and if in that uprooting we had not decided to pray for God's solution and leading every step of the path as it wound through unknown territory."
Had I not been uprooted from my sleep last night, I would have started in on my to-do list and not stopped to pray. Had I not prayed, I might not have found the strength to make it through this day. May you also find joy in this day and the peace and strength of God the Father.
Also today we will get to use the new book of Nursery Rhymes that Miriam sent us. I'm so thankful that I have a book (and cd!) to reference for songs to sing, since my sleep deprived mind still can't recall them on it's own.